Friday, December 02, 2011

Heart Wrenching

Heart wrenching:  the source and center of emotional life, where the deepest and sincerest feelings are located and a person is most vulnerable to pain.

I used this word to describe motherhood in an article coming out in January and I was not sure if it was the right word, so I looked it up.  I saw this definition and thought it was a perfect word to describe parenthood, esepecially this week!  Kids open new part of your heart and I have noticed in the past few weeks that I have probably not been as firm and consistant as I should have been and it is blowing up in my face. 

So, I am left with the decision to admit failure in some degree and change my strategies with how I deal with certain situations and then DO IT RIGHT.  I have cried a lot, but now feel more in charge and see some improvement in myself and the kids.  God has been there for me and given me grace.  I know I need to let go of my pride. 

In other news not related....we purchased a new upgraded camera!  I have yet to have time to really get to sit down and figure it out, but once I do the pictures I take will be SOO much better.  This is exciting and I have a new model to use it on coming very soon!   Pregnancy is wearing me down but I am determined to still enjoy this last month or so.  Waddling around or not, I will not be beaten by a fetus!  (I am kidding but there are some days I definately just feel like putting my feet up and not doing ANYTHING!)  I can sleep when I am old....

Off to dinner for a social for the newspaper I write for, Community Chronicles.  See my "Lastest Published Works" page at top of my blog for links.  :)  Read on and hope you enjoy!

Peace and love,
        Laura

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